Sunday, November 05, 2006
Im back finally after being confine the previous week becoz of field camp... not much mood to blog so i shall juz leave a short summary of what happen during field camp...
1st day of coz was the 8km route march to the camp site itself... that more or less shag me out already... reached campsite, pitched our bashas and then proceed for lessons in IFC... nothing much really... learn abt fire movements and stuffs thru the first 4 days when we were at the 1st campsite... got tekan abit here and there as well including a thunderstorm from our OC... den 5th day morning was turn out at 4 in the morning to break up iur bashas and to march to our new campsite... at the new campsite, finally tasted what it is like sleeping in the wild... but ok la... prickly heat scares off all the insects... den 6th day was trench digging... now that was xiong... super tiring juz to dig your own shellscrape man... den last day... march to BIC ground, crawl finish the battle field with mg firing at you and field camp is over!!!
dunno y im feeling very down nowadays... dunno whats happening to me... it seems like i have become another person... im no longer the old me... no longer the guy who always speaks with confidence and one who always do things according to his way... seems like i dun hav the motivation to do things now... its so unlike me... i seriously got no idea y im feeling this way and its not sudden... its been like tat for quite a while already... command school to me is a far far distance from me already with me still failing my ippt... i used to be not bothered abt my critics and bad press abt me... but noe, every little word seems to hurt me... i dunno y... y did i become so weak suddenly... has army changed me???
i need my confidence back and i need it now... but how...
I Love This Game.// 5:51 PM
