Wednesday, August 11, 2004
argh!!! im feeling so stress... i tink im gonna hav a mental breakdown soon... theres so much thing to be done yet these is so little time... i hav got absolutely no time to relax at all... meeting... assignments... meeting... assignments... these 2 words have been popping up into my head non stop... whenever there is even a time to break, i would tink of these 2 things... haiz...
there were some times when i really feel like giving everything up... feel like quitting as main comm and not coming to sch... but i noe i cant do tat... i was entrusted a role and i tink i should fulfil tat role... but i felt tat becoz of this heavy burden, i hav started to distant myself frm my classmates... sum how or rather, i feel tat i hav been spending lesser time wif them...
another thing is tat becoz of the comments i received abt my character... pple ask me to change coz im now a big shot they say... n i hav done tat... in fact, i tink i hav even adopted a cant be bothered attitude towards everything... wateva they wan i say anything or ok... m i doing the rite thing??? i feel tat becoz of this more n more pple r climbing over me... should i switch back to my old dominating self or should i stay like now... theres really a lot of qs i cant ans myself...
i hav lost all mood to even study or do assignment nowadays... hell, i hav even lost the mood for my 1st love, soccer... i used to be damn enthusiastic whenever theres soccer to be played... but my mind juz cant seem to tink tat way now... haiz...
should i stay or should i go... should i change or should i not... haiz...
I Love This Game.// 11:46 PM
